Welcome to our New Christian Survivors Blog.
As a life long survivor, I have come to a point where
GOD IS MY LIFE. With GOD its not surviving its pure JOY!
Because my whole life is a survival story, I am thinking, if I can help just one person stop the pain I suffered. then PRAISE GOD.
Lets HEAL AND BECOME STRONG.. no one can knock you down again with GOD!!
Stand tall and believe what you believe in, even if you stand alone.
When you work for GOD - satan is always coming after you.. I LAUGH AT HIM DAILY.. PRAISE GOD THANK YOU JESUS
I will be 60 in just a couple weeks, For me this is the scariest age.. I am not liking
the 60... lol But as I get older, my life is right there in front of me.
For the first time in my life, I feel the sadness for this soul that was so hurt.
People that I loved hurt me the most. Is that how its suppose to be.
OMG.. what has this world come to. How do people that hurt people, no matter
what the pain, how do they live with themselves.. Like the lying x friend I just learned the truth about 30 yrs ago.. OMG I am still in shock... I guess thats why its called PSTD.
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ReplyDeleteI have learned that the physical, and emotional pain I suffered, thru my life, was almost unbearable, To have my identical twin sons taken from me at 5 yrs old, not by the courts but by their father and his home wrecking new wife.
How do people truly believe that replacing a childs parent is the ANSWER.. what is wrong with that kind of person..or persons.. FYI since the 70's when divorces just became, parents would do this to their children. I swear it was the biggest shock of my life. I was a good momma to my kids, stay at home mom.. and then boom!!! all gone for all of us... the evil newly weds wont wed for longs.. geez
Parental Alienation Syndrome.. victim to that behavior.. OMG WHAT A NIGHTMARE.. I never ever dreamed someone I loved with all my heart would do this to our children.. Replace their mother
with his coke dealer!!!
For me I have learned that I do have PSTD. I am so so lucky that it only appears when I think of the time and the pain of the time.. For years I couldnt even talk about it, my throat would swell and i couldnt breath. I would have to stop talking and just breath to pull out of it.. I never really understood what these episodes were until recently.. but years of it..Now I can talk, I can write, I can say what I feel with no axioty attack. I have had to work thru 40 yrs of pain and suffering by people who only care about themselves.. wow what a life.. AND I SURVIVED
I also know the truth is the truth, so as long as you tell the truth, they cant hurt you.. I have many many witnesses to the truth..
bring them on, must say its so nice to not have some lunatic calling me ranting and raving and then hang up.. oh ya he called my work once doing the same thing, right after my twins turned 18.. thats when i decided I didnt have to put up with him.. by the way he has changed my
I was sitting there in my bosses office when he called, my boss hung the phone up and said "what a vendictive prick!!"
yes many many witnesses to his behavior..
soon to tell you the really crazy story of the twins 16th birthday.. LOL craziest behavior ever.. now i laugh..
son's heritage, HOW DID HE DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess we just dont say names. Its not like my story a secret. I do blaime TED BUNDY, I would never have met this crazy if I hadnt went to work at the flame tavern looking for my roommate Brenda Ball. GUESS WHAT I WILL NEVER BE ANYONES VICTIM AGAIN.. I LOVE BEING A TOUGH CHICK.
messed up up there where it says by the way he has changed my sons heritage!!!! How did he do that..
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I was so so TED BUNDYS VICTIM!!!!!!!!!! DAMN HIM!!!!!!!!!! He and my ex should have been buddys, by ex beat me for 8 yrs.. even before the twins.. yep i guess i thought it was normal as my mom got beat too... geez these guys...
ReplyDeleteI remember when the twins were like 2 he was beating me so bad, he dragged me by my hair and threw me in the front yard.. many many scary beatings I took.. MANY!!!!!!!!!
The next 12 yrs was hell, total battle just to be part of their lives. I am their mother, that was my right!!!!!!! 12 yrs of BULLYING ME!!!!! when my sons were 18, One of them said "MOM YOU NEVER GAVE UP!" BUT I MISSED OUT ON SO MUCH!!! HERE COMES THE ANGER, ok workin thru it, get it out.. see thats how its done, THAT SON OF BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL You know by getting it out, is like talk therpy, when a few months ago, the truth came out about what happened 30 yrs ago.. I never really understood the whole thing because i gladly escaped this horrible person, not realizing he would do what he did to my family.. MY CHILDREN!!!
OK What brought this about? A couple months ago, one of the people in my life of 30 yrs ago, told me in anger and in pain what his ex and my ex did together, she was suppose to have been my friend, OH YA ONEEEEEE OF THOSSSSSE- NO ONE NEEDS FRIEND LIKE THAT.. anyway i just learned the truth, oh the emotions whirling, was amazing I even went off on the guy who told me, i said, ALL YOU PEOPLE KNEW, WHAT MY SONS WERE LIVING WITH AND WHAT THEY WERE DOING TO THE REST OF MY FAMILY, AND NO ONE NO ONE So once Ted Bundy came into my life, I dealt with more evil for 20 yrs. and what really pisses me off now, is that he is telling people poor him and I am crazy!!!!!!! wooo hooo PRAISE GOD.. for me now its about helping thru my horrible experinces. I dont give a crap about him or his reputation, I guess its just time his game is up and people will learn the truth.. its the heritage thing that just gets me, how do you change heritages!!!!! ROFL i guess its in his phony self help book lol I still trying to figure out when he could have possibly worked for nordstroms.. rofl and ofcourse White Center is in West Seattle LMAO HELPED US.. (OK a couple really really special people tried for years) PEOPLE ALLOWED MY SONS TO AT 5 HAVE THEIR MOTHER REPLACED!!!!
PRAISE GOD, I FEEL STRONG!!!! THANK YOU JESUS
I TRULY BELIEVE I HAVE RECOVERED FROM PTSD. I believe that GOD knows his time, and I couldnt have handled the truth I learned a couple months ago any sooner, No it has come full circle, I still have moments of being a angry momma bear..
ReplyDeletebut I FEEL CLOSURE.. no more anxiety attacks and loving it, saying all i feel and gettin it out, see you can do that, get it out, we will build a network of support here. Thru GOD - TRUTH AND LOVE. Love for yourself. WE WILL NEVER BE A VICTIM AGAIN, BECAUSE WE ARE SURVIVORS..
In my life, I know 3 other people who dealt with Parental Aliention Syndrome. Our pains are all different, but the scars are there. Its so nice to let go.. talk with people who have been there, everyone is just shocked and amazed at my survival in that syndrome.. all because OF TED BUNDY.....................
I am putting together a book of my experience with Ted Bundy, all about my rip roommate Brenda, how and where I met her, when she didnt come home.. wow just remembering all this stuff is just clear as day.. www.tedbundy.homestead.com
Sharon, Brenda's and my other roommate, Sharons sister Joanne, and Eileen would babysit my kids, these people are here and have there story too. full cycle what 38 yrs later... geez start now dont take so long to get thru the small stuff... woooo hooo just loving life and PRAISING GOD..
www.tedbundy.homestead.com you can text me privately there if you like.. just type in text box dont forget your name and email address and click submit. goes rite to my email.. thanks again and WELCOME TO GRADUATION
We have all GRADUATED THE SCHOOL OF SURVIVORS
we are now NOT SURVIVING WE ARE LIVING IN GODS LOVE AND JOY.. bring um on lol
BEATEN DOWN BY LIFE!!! NOT!!!!!!
I have been writing on the different topics, regularly, wow it feels so so good.. get it out.. tell someone.. lol right now all i am telling is me, but it still feels great.
ReplyDeleteI am going to fully recover from this POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER and this is really helping me understand the trauma of my life and the horrible people i have had in it.
Particularly my second husband. 20 yrs of trauma, and still feeling it 30 yrs later because recently I found out the truth about my marriage then and about my divorce. Its very painfully and is bringing memories back, uncontrollably.. Very painful, during my memories and pain I am realizing this has been going on for years when the subject came up while battling for my sons. HE HAS GIVEN ME POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER!!! And just to show his ass, I AM GOING TO RECOVER, HE WILL NEVER HURT ME AGAIN!!!!
ReplyDeleteFor years I felt guilty because I didnt try to save my marriage, I ran as fast as I could to get away from his phony life, Not realizing he would have Parental Alienation Syndrome!!!
ReplyDeleteNitemare of my life!!!!!!!! But after learning the truth a few months ago, this SURVIVOR FEELS VALIDATED AND VINDICATED!!! HE AND HIS SELFISH COKE WHORES DID IT!!!! AND THE SO CALLED FRIEND..
HOW do people like this live with themselves!!
ReplyDeleteI can't even imagine, its like the so called friend, I remember when she changed around my husband, she worked for him and so did her husband, but she got so familar, I thought hum, but never being a jealous (atleast out loud) woman I didnt say anything, then one time the 3 of us went to LA cant remember why, or why her husband didnt go, but my ex went to do something and this WOMAN HIT ON ME!!! I remember I was shocked, and just like with guys, i just ignored it and hoped i imagined it, BUt i remember I was freaked out, So now I look back and go, ok I get it, them two where hoping i would go for it, now remember she was still married to her ex. And in her denial the other day she was saying acusations towards her ex and someone he had afair with that ruined her marriage to him, but hum wasnt she giving my ex blow jobs in the parking lot, thats what I heard too.. hum
I sure wouldnt want someone like that taking care of any of my family business. I was forgiving her because she was young and dumb like me, and instead of womaning up she I am thinking, did exactly what my ex told her to do.. what a puppet, cracks me up.. these too sick ol sickos busted for all the pain they caused so so many people, not counting the second wife because SHE GOT WHAT SHE DESERVED HIM!!!! LMFAO!! JOKE WAS ON HER HOMEWRECKING BI SEXUAL CHILD STEALING COKE WHORE!!!!!!!!1
thats it you go girl get it out!!!! thats what this is all about!!!
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